• 🐝bownage [they/he]@beehaw.org
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    Trying my best to find a new job asap so that I can actually take 1 or 2 weeks of summer vacation instead of just stressing over applications.

    Also my cat is getting surgery today to have his upper front teeth removed because they were infecting (and already had been before). The vet said it’s best to just remove them altogether because he won’t really miss them anyway and can eat fine without. Worried about my little guy but I’m sure he’ll be okay ❤️
    he should be ok to be picked up in about 4 hours yay :)

    Also, great opportunity to air out the apartment hehe

    Edit:
    Cat is okay yay! He’s completely zonked out on painkillers lol

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    I’ve been in a lot of anxiety because of politics and what’s going to happen and now after today I’m just scared. I guess I’ll have to figure out how to live once this is over. Do I just hope to continue as before with things just being worse off or are things going to change a lot?

    I’ve been just trying to rationalize that most of this is outside my control and have to accept the world for what it’s becoming. I’ve already given up, I don’t want dreams I just want peace.

  • RadioRat (he/they)@beehaw.org
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    Checked into a partial hospitalization program last week because my social anxiety and agoraphobia got too big to manage alone.

    The past few days have been perhaps the first I’ve felt joy and love in their full forms 😸

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        It’s just good to know true joy and exist in my body more often. It was really heavy for so long. I made small talk at a lab appointment prior to and at a haircut following group today.

        The hair stylist ended up being a specialist in sensory issues so it was very nice to have that kind of chill, mindful haircut. I nearly fell asleep!

        Oh! And I’m doing all this while dog tired from insomnia but I’m in a pretty good mood and getting more sleep every night 😸

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          That’s amazing! Both of those can be so hard when small talk feels impossible. I have a more mild social anxiety, and sometimes I forget how much one stupid small talk convo can make me feel so happy and positive. Glad you’re doing well ❤️

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      I’m so happy and so so proud for you RadioRat!!! I know how difficult it is to take that first step, and I am so happy to read that you’re feeling joy ❤️

  • FIash Mob #5678@beehaw.org
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    Not bad.

    I’ve reached the point where, as a contrarian, it’s time for me to speak less about politics online, so I started adding in filters to my Mastodon feed, and I like that my feed is less doomscrolling now.

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    The cat is cute. Work is stressful. It’s too damned hot (I hate summer). I should read more – I miss having the time.

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    Guess who got their computer back??

    Finally after having to send the motherboard I had bought back that I had unintentionally broken the pins on, it’s together and back at my house and I’m so grateful. I’m glad I had a laptop to lean on but I hated it all the same.

    It was a bit of a struggle because the drive with Windows on it wouldn’t work for some reason. After messing around with it, I got it to function, but I need to find the time to wipe everything and start over with Bazzite and Windows dual boot. That’s a project for later me, though.

    I got help for my dog’s vet bills, as I’m drowning in money issues currently. It’s not a huge chunk of money and I’m spacing their visits out, but Bowser is behind on immunizations and they both need annual checkups. I feel like a really bad pet owner because I’m disabled and don’t work, yet have two dogs, but I treat them the best I can. And originally, circumstances were different and I could afford everything much more easily.

    But things are okay at this very moment. I hope everyone else has a fabulous week.

  • rozwud@beehaw.org
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    Finishing up an Alaskan cruise. This is the complete opposite of how I usually travel and likely something I will never do again. That said, it has overall been an incredible time with some wonderful companions.

    Tomorrow, we will pick up my friend’s ashes at a post office in Anchorage, and the next day we will head to Kenai Fjords National Park. He made it to 49 states, so we’re bringing him to the 50th.

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      How did it go? We did something like that with my grandmother’s ashes. It was good in a bittersweet way. I hope it worked out well for you, too!

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        Hey, it went really well, thanks for asking. Found a nice spot a little off the trail to sit a bit and take our time with it. I feel like no one talks about how much ashes stick to things. I’m pretty sure I still have some bits of Corbin on my backpack, but I’m good with that. 😂

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          That is such an Alaskan setting with all that glacial till and silt clouding the waters grey and thick, and making rocky ‘sandbars’. Beautiful and raw.

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    Finally finished fixing bugs for an unofficial update of a fan game that I was modding. So pretty good.

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    A few weeks ago I posted here that I was about to go to Open Sauce. I was too tired to give an update right when I got back, but I’m here now and boy, it was incredible. Best convention ever. There was a Smash Bros tournament right as you walked in the door. There was a tesla coil music setup with a Faraday cage that they picked audience members to get up and dance in. There was a booth selling 3D printed Spiderman style magnetic grappling hooks. There was a hexacopter with a 6-foot wingspan. There was a booth demonstrating a piece of open source software designed for flowgraph/node-based procedural generation of vector graphics and written in Rust, thus hitting every single one of my interests simultaneously. There were multiple people walking around in fursuits. There was a celebrity go-kart race where the audience got infrared laser-tag blasters which would make the cars slow down, which I promptly cloned using my Flipper Zero and proceeded to wreak havoc as best I could.

    I do not think there was a single allistic person in that building. It was glorious.

    I had the time of my life just letting my ADHD carry me from booth to booth of hobbyists showing off cool shit they had made and asking about this and that and how they put it together. It was WAY bigger than Open Sauce 2023 and easily 10 times cooler.

    Anyway, I mention that because I met one of my favorite YouTube creators (Zack Freedman of Voidstar Lab) face to face while I was there and he gave me this 3D printed poker chip with his channel logo and a QR code that my phone refuses to scan but that I’m told goes to the Rickroll. He uploaded a video today explaining how he made them, pointing out several subtle design flaws that I never would’ve noticed but that are going to bug me forever now, and mentioned that in every single chip there was an NFC tag. I got the chip from its pride of place on my desk, held it to the back of my phone, and sure enough, was taken (via a Bitly link) to an unlisted video on the Voidstar Lab channel – uploaded earlier that day! Open Sauce was weeks ago. Now I’m also bugged by not knowing what would’ve happened if I’d thought to put the tag in the same pocket as my phone while we were there.

    If you meant what’s been happening to me this week, well, not much to report. I’m still off school, had some fun going swimming, got a little self-conscious when I saw 8-year-olds with better upper body definition than me. Finally got back into gaming now that I can do that without feeling guilty about blowing off my homework. I’ve been playing this really great indie metroidvania called Ghost 1.0 which I could gush about for ages (great gameplay, great humor, really neat game mechanic where you can leave your body and possess enemies which they make fantastic use of in puzzles)… but I mostly just wanted to talk about Open Sauce and tag the people who asked me to report back: @rozwud@beehaw.org @megaman_EXE@beehaw.org

    all in all things have been going pretty great!

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      Don’t feel bad about your physique, children that play and stay active are freaking shredded!

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      That sounds absolutely awesome! I would love to go sometime in the future. It seems like one of the best conventions around right now. Thanks for sharing how it went!

  • autumn (she/they)@beehaw.org
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    my dad and his wife visited for a few days, so that was fun. went to a couple of museums, breweries, etc.

    RAGBRAI is less than two weeks away!!! i gotta get more riding in. i did get my new tires installed yesterday, since i noticed my old ones were looking a little worse for the wear. was hoping to go for a ride then, but storms rolled in and ruined my plans.

    echo (border collie) is showing some signs of generalized anxiety—pacing, whining, barking, and generally restless. i’m not sure if it’s because her routine was upset with family visiting + fireworks + storms, but i’ll probably get an opinion from the vet. i did ask for some better anti-anxiety meds for the sound events, since the xanax wasn’t doing a whole lot, even administered pre-sound.

    spent a lot of time reconfiguring my budget with actual since YNAB is hiking up their prices again. still pissed they did away with their promised “lifetime” subscription price.

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        i don’t use the imports but plenty of folks seem to have good luck with it. it does cost an extra $15/year. i tried it out but decided i didn’t like transactions automated from my financial institutions.

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    I just had some vacation time, which was SO nice. Today, I was supposed to go back to work, and the office experienced a major issue with our servers, which could take up to a week to resolve. So I might get a second paid week off, which would be one heck of a nice vacation.

    For hobby stuff, I’ve still been livestreaming (mostly elden ring dlc), and people are coming around more often lately, which is neat. I’m starting to see two or more people show up, which is mind-blowing. I’m excited but also nervous because that could eventually be way more people if this pace keeps up. I feel like I’m kinda just fartin around, so I’m not really sure what to do as things grow. But I assume I’ll have some time to ease into things. It’s neat!

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    I’ve learnt how to launch 7 terminal simultaneously; feel like a total hacker out of a movie.

    On a different note, I feel completely lonely. I haven’t talked out loud with anyone for 4 days. Speech is exhausting.

    Add to that, just had the opportunity to watch The Babadook and Hereditary back to back. It broke me in a beautiful way.

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      I haven’t talked out loud with anyone for 4 days

      just had the opportunity to watch The Babadook and Hereditary back to back

      this is a wild combination. like cola and mentos for your brain.

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        Thanks for your concern, and the funny imagery, it really made me reflect. I’m now on a better place mentally.

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      I’m wondering what that’s like. Can you not even connect any more? How many connections are made per sec and can’t you just ip block them temporarily?

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        I think for the moment the instance maintainer put it behind cloud flare but I’m not totally sure as at least when I tried to use it recently I got an error of some sort