SoylentSnake [he/him, they/them]

solidly lean monog but certain swinging scenarios make me

god whirling in rags 12am sounds so fucking pretty slowed + reverbed :')

i haven’t done a deep dive on it but there’s no chance either way that i will stop consuming slop well into the evening

thinking this is true

i mean i definitely want to believe this so i can keep drinking and drinking coffee and eating food with any flavor at all and exposing my eyes to blue light so i can consume slop, but…

that sounds a bit worrying but i’m glad ur still with us comrade

why is the fix for so many mental health and health problems (insomnia and IBS, for instance) just "oh yeah, you know those things that make life bearable/give it any joy? gotta cut them shits out buddy, sorry!!! "

i joke about it a lot on here but low key IBS actually is an invisible disability. anything but a WFH email job and it really hinders your performance and ability to show up, but it’s also not something you can really talk to a boss about. i have to use a lot more sick time than the average person. there are way worse afflictions obviously but shit (no pun intended) fucking sucks

There’s just a lot more openness here than a lot of other modern forums.

tru i think this is it, plus maybe a greater conscious awareness of the Through Its this system imposes on us

love that for u homie, keep on smashin life

is there anyone on chapo dot chat who is not Going Through It at least semi-regularly? guess this is what learning eldritch truths does

a comrade on here gave me advice recently about something much less serious than this and the main takeaway from the wise shit they said is that the present moment is much more fleeting than it seems. things that seem crushing and insurmountable can be much less of a life-defining, unchangeable reality than they seem in the moment. there’s no guarantees in life, but on the other side of what you’re going through there could be love and personal happiness and connection beyond anything you can imagine right now. even though that’s not guaranteed, i’d personally want to see all that this brief time on earth has to offer me before i make my exit. i hope you end up feeling that way too.

My Empty Shell Is Shedding Me bf Strange to Be Anything At All gf

when im feeling socially restless and/or h*rny i regret living in such a family-focused neighborhood. my go-to bar is a chill vibe but not the best for meeting people. the neighborhood is nice overall but the night life as a youngish dude leaves much to be desired.

I took the “stone heart pill” early on in my dating life and had to take boosters a couple times. It isn’t a permanent thing.

idt i have this in me dog, i feel like you and i are very different (or at least, you were able to will yourself toward being v different in a way that would be more of a struggle for me). FWIW i have had things that were like “yeah that was fun or fun-ish while it lasted, but very much time to move on,” i just don’t really post about them on here cuz they were kinda nothingburgers. which i guess is a little stone heart-adjacent. it just sux when the ones that feel like really deep meaningful connects don’t pan out. nothing lasts forever or truly “pans out” i suppose because most relationships fail, and for the ones that don’t we’re all mortal. but i guess when the meaningful ones end before they feel like they’ve run their “natural course” is when it hurts. but ah well, u feel your feelings and press on.

also when i’ve posted about types i’ve generally meant more along the lines of personality types. i’m most drawn to people like me: sensitive, introspective, creatives and/or intellectuals. it’s not really a rule that i’ve set for myself, moreso that i’ve noticed pretty much everyone i’ve ever truly fell in love with has fit this type, and i think it makes sense that i’m drawn to that and there’s no reason to run from it. i guess i do sorta have physical/more superficial presentation style “types” as well but i don’t wanna post about that in too much detail because, idk, at a glance it could look a little fetishy or objectifying? and i don’t want any femme comrades to feel uncomfortable. plus the physical type dimension is also way less important than the Nature of My Potential Partners’ Souls aspect.

gotta stop posting

this is where he went wrong, actually

gotta stop posting 70% bits to vent the 30% of truth on here…shit gets too real in the comments

true actually kinda a coward move not making their romance canon

only if your lover-captor lets you hang out with their many dogs/wolves and even then it is known to end tragically i fear :'(