Damn, I’m sorry man. I graduated at the height of the great recession and after scrambling for a job for a year before caving and taking something maintaining some dumb custom PHP inventory system for a small business. Only got my previous job (doing driver development) through sheer dumb luck. It was as close to my dream job of OS development as was probably possible, and the company made a real physical thing instead of another pointless app. But the place really did a number on me, and I feel less capable then I used to be.
The job market is also worse in some ways now than it was then, which is crazy. There may be more jobs available now than then, but the ones now seem shittier and the job search process is somehow even more degrading. Im considering joining the local brick layers union. Wish you the best of luck, and I wish good tech jobs didn’t fall into either the dumbest product you’ve ever heard of, or working for some of the most evil forces on the planet.
Have you tried reducing the amount of water you cook the rice in?