fanbois [he/him]

We had a bright orange magic box that was connected to a beige windows 95 box that you were never allowed to turn off because nobody knew if it would survive a reboot and there was no software for the orange box for a more modern setup. Almost felt an like arcane ritual, typing in the command lines to get it to work.

Have you tried volleyball? Its extremely fun and being tall helps a lot.

Punctuality. Putting things away after using them. Remembering where I put my phone after putting it down in front of me one second ago. Calling you on your birthday. Opening my Mail and responding to it.

Took me 25 years to recognize I had ADHD.

On a lighter note: Chess. Hate that fucking game. Makes me feel stupid everytime I look at a board. Everything is fine and suddenly your queen is hanging and your opponent gives you a smug look, as in “did you really miss that?”.

The old batch was stored in a broken fridge and the person responsible only noticed after a week and told nobody.

GeForce 3 Ti 200.

Combined with a athlon xp 1800+ and blistering 512 MB DDR Ram I was simply TEARING through Warcraft 3 and Half Life. Thanks mom.

Also, the technical limitations and specifications of each console gave the games a distinct look. You can tell a SNES from a Genesis game, a PS1 from a N64. Even just game ports had their own charme, differing sometimes less, sometimes wildly between each console.

It all converged in the PS2 era and now it’s just differently branded PCs.

Of course. He’s not genetically evil. Essentialism is bad. He grew up in the most cold hearted, disgusting, bourgeois circumstances at the heart of capital and just kept going with it.

It’s in fact another damning argument against capitalism and patriarchy. It produces evil in people as a byproduct.

Eradication is really hard. If you just kill mosquitoes in a certain area, what’s gonna stop them from coming back? You’re just not gonna get all of them.

This way you introduce a mutation that can actually propagate through the gene pool, disabling the undesired trait for future generations. It’s also highly selective, so that you don’t accidentally get rid of other species or poison an area with pesticides.

Also living beings have no “purpose”. They fill an evolutionary niche and shape the ecological system around them. The piss off us, so we play a little god, but nature has no opinions or morals whatsoever.

I just want to stop feeling so bad but i know it’s because i still haven’t properly moved on. It doesn’t help that they told me there was a possibility of rekindling it but i know that’s not the right choice for either of us and I really don’t want a FWB type situation either.

The fact that you don’t give in to this, is a great sign of moving on. You’re not blinded by desire or false hope. Your brain understands and your heart will follow. It’s just a little more inert.

There’s always something that reminds me of them every day whether it be a bench we sat on, a gift, song, food, etc you get the idea.

The biggest cry I had after a breakup was a month after I she left me. I was walking home at night and something reminded me of us walking the same way and I just stopped and cried sitting on a wall for 30 minutes or so. It hurt so much but now I know, that this was pure catharsis. I’ve tried to fight the sadness, “get over it”, move on, not feel bad anymore. But what I needed was to bawl my eyes out until they burnt with snot spread all over my jacket. And when I was done I was okay.

Embrace it. You’re alive and you loved and this what you get for that. It will pass, no matter what you do, but until then it’s yours.

The only real advice i got is to listen to your favorite sad songs a lot and to take an hour long shower until your brain had dissolved in the mist and your skin is almost peeling off.

Thesis: ANarchism

Antithesis: brat

Synthesis: bratAN

Love popOS, but it did not play well with my multi monitor setup. It just couldn’t deal with different resolutions (qhd laptop, two fhd monitors) and sizes. Mint can. So I am back to Mint and stopped worrying about distro hopping.

I don’t want to compile anything. I don’t want to “make”. I don’t want to use command lines. I don’t want to download Rust. Or know the difference between python2 and python3 and how you still have to be specific about it. I never wanna read a git manual with lines that mean nothing to me again. I don’t care about snap or flatpack or whatever package distribution gives me a year old version of my program on this distro and how that version differs from the one from the webpage.

Sorry Linux, but a big download button, double click, “install to c:/program files”, “want a short cut to desktop”, done. is the gold standard for 99% of applications.

I know there are reasons. But still, it sucks.

It’s often enough AAA with tons of money that force insane crunch to hit a release date and still have buggy, uncompleted games.

Cut it stripes, some salt, fry in a pan and you can throw it over a lot of dishes.

Botanical fun fact: cabbage is just a variant of Brassica oleracea, which includes like every tasty vegetable on the planet: cauliflower, broccoli, brussel sprouts, kohlrabi, kale, collards, all kinds of cabbage shapes, colours and sizes, and more.

I wish I liked them. They seem so useful and plentiful, but they taste so utterly interesting to me. Yes, if they are slathered in oil and perfectly grilled and seasoned, they are fine. But then again what isn’t.