My egg finally cracked, or more like it has been cooking for a while and now it is finally done?

I turned 35 recently and despite all the really obvious signs over many many years - into gender bender anime/manga, occasional crossdressing for “fun” at home, is it just a kink? huge Miku fan, do I like her / want to be her? etc. I always kind of just compartmentalized it as a kink mostly. And I have a pretty stable life atm, I’m doing well, but maybe I felt a few things didn’t fit.

I’ve always been slow with my feelings, but I’ve been reading all these experiences on egg_irl and transmemes lately. Especially Brook2Valley comics, and these memes/posts below really resonated.

https://i.imgur.com/nwKuHa6.jpeg

https://i.imgur.com/6GdK410.jpeg

https://alx.lemmy.blahaj.zone/lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/40941931

https://alx.lemmy.blahaj.zone/lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/41147595

I did some broader research to really confirm things for myself and damn, just admitting it finally felt euphoric. So much that I couldn’t sleep and apparently it has fixed my ADHD.

I’m not even remotely ready to share with my irl friends yet, but I started looking at health care options locally that are trans friendly.