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Cake day: July 9th, 2026

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  • I don’t know if its a lie exactly, but probably the most damaging thing was being conditioned into not defending or speaking up for myself.

    I got attacked, thrown into a main road. I was told it was my fault for making myself an easy target because I was playing in some woods after school.

    I so rarely ever defended myself because of how scared I was of the punishment being worse than the bruises. I used the internet to escape from it and my parents threatened to take away my PC if I ever got an after school detention. I felt like defending myself was wrong.

    The only times I did defend myself was when it was extremely bad and I no longer cared about the possibility of punishment. A guy was sexually assaulting me and I punched him in the face so hard that he completely stopped, almost like his brain rebooted for a good several seconds. Then his nose started dripping blood over the floor.

    Teacher was fucking furious with me. When asked why I did it I just looked at the floor and muttered “I don’t know”. I was probably about 14, I didn’t really know what sexual assault was, like maybe if he had been ripping my clothes off? I just knew I didn’t like what he was doing and wanted him to stop.








  • I experienced the cruelty and bullying so much that I started to think every comment was.

    I still think a lot were. But going past school kids now I am double the age on my way to work and still hearing some similar things, I think some of them might just be stupid.

    A recent one was “your wheel is going round!”… I am on a bike. Wtf does that even mean? Like… That is how bikes work?

    But I am in my early 30s now and the kid was probably 14. It doesn’t feel quite like the same bullying I felt at school. There was definitely directed bullying too. Like being called gay, virgin, loser… But the dumber comments by other people, I don’t know what to make of that now.