The room? Cleaned

The mirror? Shiny

The vibes? Immaculate

The song? ‘Forgotten voyage’ lindsey stirling

Just happy this weeks better than the last. How about everyone else?

  • brookedSmile@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOP
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    6 days ago

    Youll get there sooner than you think, promise! ❤️

    5 years ago i woulda told you that im probly not going on hrt or doing anything medically. 3 years ago i couldnt imagine leaving my house even at night in fem. 2 years ago i woulda said theres no way that ill publicly out myself in any way. One year ago there no way i would left the house in broad daylight in fem. 6 months ago i woulda said no way to any surgeries. 3 months ago i would said its too soon for a pathways appt. I think you can guess how that all went 😂😂

    Seriously though, your journey is yours and noone elses, take as long or short of a time as you need. Every sister here deserves to take their time blossoming into the beautiful flower theyre meant to be! ❤️

    Edit: when i am done with masc clothes, there no way in hell me burning them doesnt end up as a post here

    • Courtney (she/her/they) @lemmy.blahaj.zone
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      6 days ago

      I checked planned parenthood, and they’ve got an office about 40 miles from me and I have some money I had saved up “just in case” (“just in case" what, turtle?) I could use for some appointments and things.

      I really do want to get started, but im just terrible at reaching out to make appointments. I’ve always said I need a medical assistant I can shoot a text to and be like “I need dental work, can we find a dentist that accepts medicaid and schedule an appointment?” instead I wait for things to build up until I have no choice but to make the calls… Not healthy lol

      Add all that into the fact that I’m making a bit of a leap in today’s world, and while it’s a ledge I want to sprint off of, getting that first good stride toward the edge is apparently harder mentally. I should see if one of our friends is willing to schedule it for me 😂 or bare minimum help me through it…

      Definitely post the Burninating. A few of my friends want to have a full ceremony under the full moon to get rid of mine.

      I’ve already tossed almost all my male undergarments and some of the more hated clothing. I have most of my shirts and some things to interview/work/be boymoding in… Can’t wait until I can have a witchy ceremony to destroy them once and for all!

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        5 days ago

        I feel it, alls i want to do is jump into the deep end but its probly better to take small steps 😂

        I def will. Ill burn it all except my band t shirts, but those can still be girly lol

        • Courtney (she/her/they) @lemmy.blahaj.zone
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          5 days ago

          Fuck small steps, give me a pool filled with estradiol!

          You can absolutely style any t-shirt to be girly! In school all the goth/punk/alt girls would take old shirts and cut them up, and re-tie the strands together to make more feminine cuts, and as a bonus the sides had gaps to provide a nice breeze in summer (which sometimes required planning the wardrobe accordingly) so I bet you could absolutely make them more feminine! You need to post pics when you do!

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            5 days ago

            Holy i forgot all about the cut up shirt thing! Thats actually an awesome idea.

            My partner (cis female) has to take estradiol for different reasons, and i cant count how many times i looked on jealously lol. Ill get there very soon though, im confident in that. Thank Gaia that i dont live in a backwards shithole, i dont envy anyone in that situation

            • Courtney (she/her/they) @lemmy.blahaj.zone
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              5 days ago

              I only remembered because my partner has one from college chilling somewhere around here. You couod even practice on all the “to burn” shirts!

              Lol I’m not sure where you live, but here in rural Ohio, smack in the middle (ish) of the US, I’d definitely consider this area a “backwards shithole”, compared to some many places. Then again, I still have access to gender affirming care even if I have to pay out of pocket, so I suppose I’m not bad off. Can’t imagine how much it must suck to live in some countries though…

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                5 days ago

                Oregon!! I love it here! mental health access, abortion access, and gender pathways access are probly some of the best in the country. I hear stories all the time of people starting their journey with a doctor and still having to wait years before hrt. Here im fully confident ill walk in, tell them what i want and when i want to start it, and thats how itll happen. State insurance is REALLY good here for trans folks too. You name it its covered by OHP: trach shave, laser removal, vaginoplasty, top surg, face feminization, hrt, everything thats a part of anyone heres journey is covered.

                Plus its beautiful here! Mountains, ocean, beaches, rivers, desert, forest, we got it all.

                As a lifelong oregonian i wouldnt want to be anywhere else. And we usually say please stop fucking moving here. But i hereby give permission for everyone FtM, MtF, or anything in between to move here. We welcome you with open arms! Especially if your in an unsafe place or country, we NEED you here and happy ❤️

                Edit: spelling

                • Courtney (she/her/they) @lemmy.blahaj.zone
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                  5 days ago

                  Omg that sounds like heaven compared to here! I’ve always wanted to move to pnw, and if it were an option, we would move on a heartbeat.

                  I should totally try to get some of the Trans-formers to all move and get a chunk of land in Oregon and make like an lgbtqia+ commune lol

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                    5 days ago

                    Thats one thing that would make it better here, a trans founded and led small town. I cant lie and say i havent really wanted to do that. Thats the dreammmm 😍