“My radiance shines brightly, I have the high ground! Do not hate me because I’m beautiful, do not hate me because I am handsome, for I shall twirl away your comments as the worthless air they are!”

The real question is why use Google for 99% of searches? There are very few searches where Google is “necessary,”(debatable still).

Short hair is cute–Cropped with volume or just short-short. That is a really silly thing for onlookers to bring up, but low-hanging fruit is what they prefer to go after, as dealing with reality is too difficult.

And AMABs are indeed unfortunately often forced, either physically or psychologically(abusing their psyche until they “want to,” do so as to try to pretend they gave their child choice) get their hair cut regardless of how they feel about it. My cis as cis could be cousin even, he just straight up preferred longer hair growing up and hated it cut, and it would harm him emotionally if a barber screwed it up(or if they were “influenced,” as I suspect happened in some cases) and made it too short. He was collateral of a society that wants to strike down even the possibility of someone living a life of their own beyond the “values they were raised on,”(gross).

“Hey I’m Grump, I’m not-so Grump, AND WE’RE THE GAME GRUMPS!”

Suicide always leaves those of us behind with many questions, more than one takes an ever greater toll on the mind of the one left behind, so I want to first say first and foremost, genuinely: Your emotions are valid, and I know firsthand how much it can make one become overwhelmed.

Yes, suicide hotlines are still a thing. For the LGBTQ+ Youth, there is The Trevor Project, for others 988 services general crisis-level calls. You would need to contact particular crisis centers themselves likely for more details, but I would suspect one would need a degree in Psychology or other therapeutic-esque degrees to work in them.

Other than that, the unfortunate and harsh truth is that if one truly intends to go through with it, you as one person are unlikely to know until it is too late. Some choose the mercy of an out on their own accord, and those serious oft not talk about it unprompted. We have to try to be the best we can for those we cherish, and if something happens in spite of that, we know that we gave them a light, however dim it might have been, before the time. It is not a full solace, but it contextualizes an otherwise very overwhelming feeling.

Fur fluff pet fluffy~

Yikes. At least you got through it, and I have heard a lot about miside, never played it. Does not seem like my bottle of water personally, but I understand the appeal it has for others.

Speaking of computer maintenance, funny story that: This computer I am running is a Linux Box that was running such an old Ubuntu LTS version that it no longer received updates and the repos it pointed to no longer existed. Had to completely reinstall Ubuntu on it to get it up to speed. Nice little box though for what I use it for(which is not much). Once cooked it trying to use sddm as the display manager, had to go into recovery and uninstall it. Linux is great for the same reason it can be problematic for the inexperienced. I had enough experience to fix it, not enough to not have broken it from the outset. Better than the time a bad Linux Distro straight up broke the wireless chip in another computer then managed to make it no longer post. That computer was ready to be retired long before I ever even got it, but it was such a shame. It was an old Alienware Steam Machine.

This is the type of image I would love to just have as a poster(many unamused persons would see it, and make me giggle with their consternation).

Much energy, very cute.

Also, soup~! Yay soup~

Directness is nice–Games are best played co-op, not PvP.

Definitely should! I would rate it a solid 8/10, I have some gripes with it but it accomplished what it set out to, and the dead silence of the small number of folks in the theater spoke to the absolute focus it brought on us all, captivated until the end.

And yeah, panic attacks are not fun. Thankfully I was able to calm myself down, it was just a very heavy-hitting film.

If only GOG was not so problematic with its restorations. A game designed for X era not running on an X era machine because GOG decided to fiddle around with it and break its compatibility on the system. My Windows 7 machine was not very happy with GOG. More power to them for keeping old games alive and DRM-free, but that was a nightmare dealing with.

I saw the Miku shirt and fully thought it was the meme of her going “GAY?!”. Ah the memories.

Also, oof, server stuff. I have dealt with so much of that over the years I would rather never touch one again. A database fine, miss me with trying to figure out why a permission set to active is not really set to active when there is no reason for it to not be set to active, or having to babysit the thing to actually boot itself up properly. I do not know exactly what you mean with server(on-platform, a physical one working on its backend, or whatnot), but still, mood mood and bleh. Tomorrow relaxation yay, enjoy it!

Firstly, congratulations on nearly reaching the starting line to the rest of your life. 18 always feels different to different people, but mostly everyone finds that life changes quite rapidly after that level-up.

People here have mentioned getting a job, but I want to offer a bit more actionable advice:

1. Contact a temp agency. You might find a direct employment somewhere if you scour the landscape enough, but temp agencies almost always have a contract in need of someone who is willing to show up. A lot of industries use temp agencies to fill in gaps but also to headhunt, and temp-to-hire is a real possibility that could translate into a career. Do not let anyone try to dissuade you from using a temp agency. Especially for those lacking work experience, they are likely your best bet(that was how I began before I was even out of Highschool a decade ago).
2. The fact you are actually working on a website(HTML from scratch or at least some custom HTML usage I would hope?) is really cool! But let it be a side-hobby until you can get enough of that experience under your belt. If you get well-versed enough in web design, you could always freelance for experience and possibly translate that into an opportunity down the line.
3. Starting a business is a lot a lot of work. It is not something a greenhorn(those new to things) should really be vying for, though the ambition is to be admired, I did not have that kind of thinking when I was your age. More power to you there, but do not get lost in the sauce. Like I mentioned in point 2, perhaps you can translate your apparent passion of web design into something eventually, but first you need capital and stability.

I am not going to offer financial advice since, well, I cannot do that. But the above is general job advice from a girlie on the boulevard, you can take it or leave it. I will opine one thing though: Banks usually have a way to automatically transfer money to a savings account and you can set percentages when setting up direct deposits so you can put money in one per paycheck, if you feel so inclined to do so. That is up to you and your situation though, just mentioning it if you were unaware of that.

Very interesting question honestly. The folks at my work probaby wonder it considering I am always giving enthusiasm even at the start of the work week.

I would not so much call it a “cheat code,” but what helps is to place yourself in this moment in time. What happened did, what happens now is, what happens later is not yet reality. To be fully present in the moment you are, and to embrace that and be in tune with your inner realm, that is how you can live life fully. At least, that is how I see it.

Many worry about the past which is just pointless, many worry about the future which will come regardless of worry and can only be changed by being present in the now. If we lose ourselves in times that are not, we lose the time that is, which is a travesty. “Right now is still special because you are here for it.”

Funnily enough from the time of your reply not even 24H later, saw a very emotional movie with my brother(nearly had to take my panic attack meds, but it was still really good, called Cocoon) and got a lot of Manga, much of which is Yuri with some comedy SoL and thriller romance mixed in. Much to read! Me and a book store will always be friends so long as they have a Manga section.

I understand your trail of thought. I am not necessarily decrying it, hence why I mentioned it would be “controversial,” which, well, we have seen play out in this comment section as a whole.

I would not condemn a Femboy for an annoyed clap-back at somebody for it, but I also would not blame a transfem in earshot to believe the Femboy was a hostile packmate.

There are some really shiny diamonds for a certainty. My Prince I met through that platform, so I do not deny its ability to bring folks together. Unfortunately, like you encountered(but hopefully not the darkness I had to encounter) there is a lot of horribleness.

And I gotcha. Still just be mindful, as sudden start-stops even of OTC can be problematic, and you will know more about yourself and your situation. The person was not wholly wrong, as taking too much likely would weaken the body’s natural production of melatonin or cause a spike in its production to meet the hole left by the supplement’s departure. To elaborate a bit more–Melatonin supplements can help with bringing on tiredness in the body, as it is the chemical that helps you to be in a state of sleepiness. Spiking those levels though only does that–spikes tiredness. That can induce sleep sure, and could make it deep(possibly too deep) in doses unregulated by your Doctor, but it is not a sleeping supplement. It is the foil to Caffeine, which is a stimulant that helps shove melatonin and otherwise to the side to functionally trick you into a perceived wakefulness, while your body is actually still in the tired state just not as much conscious to you. None of this is medical advice, simply what I have read up on, since the two are extremely common chemicals people grab way too quickly to meet a believed need that it does not provide, which can be dangerous, especially the “I just need a coffee and I can keep driving,” types.

And ah. To be fair, BuSpar could absolutely be read and remembered as “BuuStbar.” Still pretty funny though, haha.

Ah yes, the websites that you put your resume into, it goes “kthanks,” then asks you to fill out all of the information, that is on the resume you uploaded. Honestly an AI is probably an improvement to talk to, at least it in theory could parse the information like it should.